I'm Stunted

Some say that Alcoholics are stunted in maturity (type of level) starting from when their addictions began.
I was thinking about this the other day when I was on the train going to the ferry. I felt this girl/woman was looking @ me. And, who knows, I could have had a booger or toothpaste on the side of my mouth. But I was flattered none the less. And as I sat there, I was like,Michael,she is looking at a 47 year old you, and inside I am feeling like I am getting cruised @ a crowded bar @ Wildwood, NJ circa 1986.
I do not act my age. I was in a meeting @ work and I feel like I am so immature, yet, when I was 15 or so, I was like 30 years old and all my responsibilities.