I am the 600$ man

I got a new bridge for my lower teeth, filling in all those gaps of teeth that had receded so bad that I pulled them out with pliers and WD40 because they frigging hurt so much. It sounds gross (I never used WD40), but sometimes the pain is too much. Last time this happened, I went to my dentist and I was out of there in about (I swear) 3 minutes. It took me longer to get in that chair contraption which looks like a boiled shrimp. I sat down, opened wide and he had this gripp-ey tool which needed no help. 30 seconds and no blood. What sucks is that these are all front teeth. So, unless I want to look like Cletus or a Jack-o-lantern I will suffer. For what? I have no idea. I am probably never gonna hook up for the rest of my life.
Curse you Damn Life.

Tsunami is tsnow-me

If anyone goes back to the archives, one of my first major posts was writing about the Tsunami of, was it 2002? And here I feel I am ending on the same note. Another Tsunami. Man, I listen to BBC all night, I feel so sorry for these wonderful, resilient people. I have never been so riveted to an event so much...This is not "loo-key loo's on the highway",this is real. The fractured pain and sorrow that is hidden behind a face like marble in most elders. They have seen it all.
I have admired these beautiful people from Japan,when me and Laura Connair went to see the movie, "Come See The Paradise". It was about the Japanese American Internment Camps.
I think I'm done with blogging. I have so much more to expound on. I care not of the readership numbers, I just hope friends and strangers may enjoy my tome. Not asking you to reply
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Figures. I finally got a job!

It comes in Waves

I totally understand this phrase, especially after living beside water for my whole life and working on a ship. But, say you are sitting at the shoreline, and just letting the incoming surf tickle your toes. You can bet your next clamato juice on the fact that another wave is coming in. It's life, you know and I really like things that are constant. What I hate or can't stand is dis-order. And my life is so freaking full of every contrasting emotion (or emoticon for you neer do wells). I live with Love/Hate, Pride/Self Doubt, Lust/Derission, Wonderment/Disallusionment every half hour.
I am not as fucked up as you may think. I think. I read real books. I admire wordsmiths and I also realize that I will never, ever find love. It comes in tsunami's. Litlle trickle happen and then the big one hits.

Within your Reach

I love The Replacements and they made a song...About death. And as much as I love these guys, they could not replace the loss I felt. This was one of the most trumatic times in my life.
I played "Within your reach" non stop. Then I moved home.
I just want to say,stupidlly,to Kerry,that I kind of loved her,as much as my heart alllows to love. I so wanted to take you on that weekend with me, but you had to watch your nephew. I love you Kerry. I ache for you,I scream some times about your death. Love always...Michael